Two weeks ago I hobbled into my functional medicine
practitioner’s office on crutches to discuss my gut healing that we had been
working on. I left the office with a probable diagnosis of Lyme disease. The
symptoms started the Sunday eight days previous before I even noticed a bite—my
legs seized up at dinner several hours after walking slightly off a trail at
near the Mississippi River. In the week that followed I had neck stiffness, leg
swelling, headaches, blurred vision. It was not until midweek that I noticed
large raised bug bite on my ankle. It did not hurt at all, nor look funny, but
my ankle joint pain was getting worse.
I woke up in the middle of the night early Friday morning
with shooting leg pain, and spent a half an hour Googling symptoms. I could not
figure it out. By the next evening I could not walk around the house without
help. I decided to go into urgent care on Saturday—because clearly I was
injured. At urgent care I got an x-ray and a few blood draws, but their best
explanation was a sprain or bursitis, though I had not had an injuring event.
So, when I went to my appointment on Monday, it all came together.
I had always been terrified of someone in our family getting Lyme—I knew it was
bad—and now we are living it.
The first week of treatment had me just getting worse—as the bacteria started
to die off, they released toxins into my body, which increased my symptoms. I
could not even get up to go to the bathroom without extreme leg pain, which
then led to my legs throbbing for almost an hour after I made it back to the
bed or couch. But I had to drink fluids to promote healing, which would lead to
another painful hour of recovering from getting up.
The professor took care, still is taking care, of all my needs. He makes
me breakfast in bed, lunch on the couch, dinner on the couch. He helps me pick
out clothes. He helps me run the bath and shower since I do not have the
strength to stand in the shower. He brings me my medicines and fluids. He takes
care of all the kids needs. He preps the dinners and washes all the dishes. And
I can’t do a thing to help him, because I am too sick and too tired.
A sweet friend arranged a meal delivery sign-up as soon as she heard of my
illness, and we have been supported by so many meals all accommodating my
extreme dietary restrictions. THANK YOU FRIENDS! You are the best!
Last Friday, our pastor came over and I received three Sacraments: Holy
Eucharist, Penance, and the Anointing of the Sick. It was so beautiful to
experience a Sacrament specifically praying for my bodily health—my health so
that I can serve the Church again. As Father left, he said that he felt that my
whole motherhood was under attack because of the way I have been limited from
doing my normal tasks of motherhood for my children and for my family. Which is
true.
But all along as I have not been able to walk and have been in pain, I have
been thinking about how an illness in one part of the body affects the whole
body. I have been praying for the whole Body of Christ throughout my suffering,
because our Catholic Church so needs it.
But while we are afflicted in every way, we will not be destroyed, because Jesus rose.
This summer since we got home has been a ridiculous one. I had a bad case of mastitis (which they thought was cancer for about 5 days), and then have been being treated for candida (an overgrowth of yeast) in my gut, and now this. But the Lord is giving me the great gift of uniting my suffering, my fatigue, my fears, with Him.
I do not know how long I will be ill. Some people take years to recover from Lyme. For most, if it is caught early, the first four week round or so of antibiotics is enough. It would be nice if the professor could actually use his sabbatical to write his book, and if I could have the strength to home school the kids each day soon.
I am walking mostly pain free now--still limping, so still using a crutch. Today, while I was in less pain, I barely had energy to sit up and eat. Eating has been a trial--I struggle to get through each meal and feel triumphant and relieved when the last bite is in. Yet, I am steadily getting better.
So, please pray for my complete recovery, and I will continue to offer this all for the Church, that healing will happen, the truth will be made clear, and that justice will be done.